Today’s Happy Note: Napping. Self-acceptance. Let me explain: I have felt pretty sleepy and a wee bit lethargic this week. Normally when that happens, I get angry at myself (“gee Caronae, why can’t you be more productive; you’re so lazy; you suck”). Not this time. I had a splendid afternoon nap and I just took it for what it was. I am not a terrible person. I don’t spend all my time sleeping. My body knows when it needs a little extra love and rest, and I listened to it. I am proud of myself for that. Small victories people. Small victories.
Something else I’m proud of: My run today! Tuesdays are speed work days. I’ve said it before: speed work scares the crap out of me. It’s really hard for me because my fast twitch muscles are kind of non-existent. Because I know it’s hard, I work myself up into an anxious fit and then make it even harder for myself!
Not today. The plan was 2 mile warm up, 4×1 mile @ tempo pace, 2 mile cool down. I did 1/4 mile easy run/walk between each fast mile, for a total of 9 miles.
My tempo pace goal was 9:00 minutes per mile. I crushed it!
Mile 1: 8:36
Mile 2: 8:34
Mile s: 8:30
Mile 4: 8:27
I was so shocked. I worked hard, it felt hard, but I did it! I love that amazing feeling you get after a good hard speed workout. I enter into a state of physical, emotional calm and my body and mind become so content and relaxed.
I’m proud of myself indeed.
No Therapy Tuesday today because my therapist had an emergency and had to cancel. I felt really bad for her; I could tell how stressed and anxious she was when she called; she seemed really upset and I actually felt like the inconsistency bothered her more than me! Then, as I was walking home from work, I ran into her outside the grocery store. It was really weird to see her outside of the office environment (her office is actually in her apartment, which I really like because it seems more comfortable and less stiff)! I could tell how completely harried she was; I was actually a little bit nervous that she was about to have a panic attack or something. Anyways, I told her not to worry and to calm down. Sort of a weird little reversal of roles. We rescheduled for tomorrow.
I heart frozen berries.
And chocolate-topped smoothies.
Dinner was epic, not to mention that it took five minutes to prep. I combined a can of tuna with a few spoonfuls 2% Fage, garlic hummus, chopped bell peppers, and guacamole. Holy easy dinner. Holy tastiness.
I just ate a weird iced tea slushy concoction. It looks really weird so I’m not gonna share any pictures. It’ for your own benefit, trust me. It was iced chamomile tea (sweetened with stevia and honey) blended with a boatload (yes, that’s a word) of ice cubes. Random, but I was craving something cold and icy, and this did the job.
Confession: I have a nut-butter-sneaking habit. I take pictures of most of what I eat, since it is helpful for me to have a record. But spoonfuls of nut butter and tiny handfuls of nuts often escape the camera. I don’t deprive myself, ever, but I also know that I don’t necessarily need those extra calories. So I’m making a promise to myself to photograph everything I eat; even those tiny spoonfuls. I don’t share all my eats on the blog everyday (today there were maybe two spoonfuls of unpictured nut butter and a serving of TJ’s mini PB cups). Can you tell I like PB?
I didn’t eat a lot today given that I ran nine miles (and maybe walked two more?), but I think it makes sense given that I ate more than I needed to yesterday. I love how my body balances things out and really figures out what’s going on and what it needs or doesn’t need. Bodies are so smart.
Be back tomorrow with Therapy Wednesday!
I hope you’re all having a most wonderful week. Relax, smile, breathe!