Today’s Happy Note: Writing. I haven’t done much non-blog writing since I was in the hospital. I feel like what I have wanted to say has been trapped inside me lately, but for some reason, this evening, it all came pouring out. Lots of words, lots of thoughts, lots of prose. I needed it.
Today started nice and early for a very special trip to the Today Show…to see Caitlin! She was promoting her amazing, inspiring book, Operation Beautiful, based off of the Operation Beautiful website. I met up with a bunch of other bloggers around 6:30. It was wonderful to be there for Caitlin — I truly felt joyful for her, and as a result, I felt good about myself. And blog friends are amazing. My mom always says things like, “but they aren’t ‘real’ friends?” No, mom, they’re real. We talk online and in person and they are good to me. I love having things in common; it’s always so easy to talk to new blog friends. There were so many people there — Tina, Gabriela, Sabrina, Theodora, Ashley, Rebecca, Lauren, Adriane, Cynthia, and Jess. Sorry if I missed you! Feel free to say hello. 🙂
Gabriela and I!
I have struggled with my body image for a long, long time. Longer than I have been an “adult”, longer than I’ve been a runner. Pretty much since I was a little girl. But you know what? There are so many other wonderful things about me that it seems silly to think that the way I look defines me. I know, in my heart, that I am smart, creative, quick, strong, colorful, artistic, engaging, endearing, sweet, compassionate, passionate, and lovely, overall. OB has helped me to understand this. It has showed me that, even if I am still a little bit uncomfortable in my body, my beauty is so much more than that. So thank you Caitlin and OB.
What adjectives would you use to describe yourself?
I got in a great six miler today (plus another three or so walking) despite the 95 degree heat. I was an idiot and decided that noon was a good time to run??? I incorporated a lot of hills into the run. It was actually kind of fun; I felt like I was sweating all the bad things (physically and mentally) out of me.
I hope that we can all begin to love ourselves a little more. The world doesn’t see me for my body. The world doesn’t see the 15 extra pounds on me and think that makes me hideous and worthless. I would never say the things that I say to myself to anyone else. I have made many half-hearted attempts at positive self-talk in the past. But it’s time to start for real now. I love me. I like my long, wild hair and my strong upper arms. I like my breasts — sometimes their size is a little bit annoying, but they are distinctly womanly. I like the way I can write pages and pages at a time, just spewing, and somehow it all fits together. I like the fact that I’m not afraid to eat; I know what my body wants and needs. I like my new found social skills; two years ago I NEVER would have met up with friends I didn’t know. I like my creative desserts and baking skills.
I like the way my stomach is defined and strong, but also soft.
What do you like about you?