Hospital, Part II

Today’s Happy Note: Getting a pedicure.  Never had one before.  It was wonderful.  Now my feet are clean and shiny and soft!

Thank you all for your support yesterday, and as I continue to tackle this illness.  It won’t be easy but I know I’ll come out alive, hopefully having learned some lessons and had some nice moments along the way!  Yesterday you all solidified my belief in human compassion.  It binds us and nurtures us like nothing else.

I have been having a fun, relaxing few days with my mama.  I get tired pretty easily and really winded walking fast or up a hill or stairs.  Still, we have walked a lot.  I think it’s been good to get my legs moving a bit and some fresh air (if you can call NYC air “fresh”) into my lungs.  Still no coughing or chest pain or tightness in my legs (which could signify new clots).

One of the funny things about this health scare was that it made me realize how healthy I already am.  In fact, because my heart and lungs were (and are) so strong, the doctors almost missed it.  When I was actually in the hospital, I was the only patient on my floor who seemed to be actively moving and thinking and writing and feeling.  At first I thought the nurses were annoyed by my constant activity (if I wasn’t cleaning my room and folding the blankets, I was walking around the floor, or doing a sudoku puzzle, or asking the doctors about my test results), but then I realized that it really just wasn’t something they were used to.   All the other patients just sort of laid in their beds staring at the TV or sleeping.  I am not judging them — they might have been sicker or older or just plain old tired — but it made me grateful for the health that I do have.  I may not have the perfect body and sometimes I eat too much sugar.  But I do a damn decent job.

Hospital pictures:

I am taking the next few days to relax some more.  I will have to do some work from home.  But I also plan on reading, writing, baking, napping, seeing movies/concerts, drawing, snuggling, and just generally taking a break.  Any other suggestions? I can leave the house but get tired easily, so I try not to be out and about all day.  I might do an easy yoga class tomorrow, because I’m getting stiff and bored of not moving.  I think it would be a nice, calming stretch.

There are also plenty more issues related to the Pulmonary Emboli that I have to follow up on.  I have an appointment to see a blood clot specialist and a endocrinologist-gynecologist.  I also am having twice weekly blood tests, doctors appointments, and another heart Echo in a few weeks.  Unfortunately, my INR has not gotten up high enough yet.  It was only 1.2 today so I need to take more Coumadin and continue the Lovenox for a while (I learned how to inject myself this morning!).  My dad and sister are coming this Thursday or Friday for a few days.

Posting might be back to normal soon.  It all depends on how my health is; if I am still having issues with the clots or the medication or my INR, then I’m going to talk about that.  I will, of course, try to include other, more fun health-related things.

Tomorrow I have to tell you about two fun restaurants I have gone to since getting out of the hospital!

Have you ever been hospitalized?

What’s the most compassionate thing someone has ever done for you?


17 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Lindsay
    Jul 20, 2010 @ 00:12:04

    I just read Part 1 of your experience. How scary! It’s good that everything turned out OK. I’m sorry you had to go through that, though.

    It’s weird when you’re normally so healthy and then something big like this happens. You want to be like, “Oh, no, this sort of stuff doesn’t happen to me.”

    I was hospitalized a couple of months ago. I had outpatient surgery that ended up having somewhat rare bleeding complications a week later. I didn’t mind being in the hospital so much once they were able to figure out what was going on and fix it, but before then, it was pretty scary knowing how worried the doctors and nurses were (which is probably something you understand).

    I hope you continue to feel better!


  2. Sarah
    Jul 20, 2010 @ 02:27:06

    Hehe I can just picture you cleaning your room and chatting to doctors…I bet they couldn’t believe you were so active in the face of such a serious illness – as you say, it’s a real testament to your general good health and the fact that you look after yourself so well in daily life. Your positive attitude and fighting spirit throughout this have me in total admiration of you.

    I have some taking a break suggestions to add to your list – jigsaws, board games, new crafty activities (e.g. origami or card making or something), make a collage, puzzle books (I like that you are a fellow sudoku fan!).

    As for hospital, my one experience last year was ED related….1 month in a normal hospital for bradycardia and then 5 months in a specialist clinic…

    And the most compassionate thing anyone has ever done is to stick by me during those 6 months. I cannot imagine how difficult it must be to support someone who is determined to destroy themselves, and I have realised since then that compassion is a very important quality to have – I want to in a sense give something back by being as supportive as I can be to others.

    Sarah x


  3. Ameena
    Jul 20, 2010 @ 11:23:12

    I have serious trouble doing nothing…I am a bundle of energy most of the time! When I developed my blood clot the doctor’s put me on bed rest for the remainder of my pregnancy. Hah! I was kickboxing the next week. Terrible but true.

    Maybe you can find a nice coffee shop and bring a book/your computer and hang out there. That way you are around activity but can still be resting?


  4. Darya
    Jul 20, 2010 @ 12:13:18

    I can’t wait to see you thursday keep feeling better!


  5. Gabriela @ Une Vie Saine
    Jul 20, 2010 @ 12:33:12

    I just got done reading your last post, and I am absolutely amazed. Amazed that something like this happened to you, amazed that the doctors caught it by chance, and amazed at how well you’ve pulled through. I’m SO HAPPY YOU’RE OKAY!!!! I’m glad your family is there and that you’re taking care of yourself- it’s sad that so many of us don’t realize how amazing and complex our bodies are until this kind of thing happens! Keep taking it easy love, I’m sending lots of prayers and positive thoughts your way!

    I’ve been hospitalized four times that I can remember right now- once for having my tonsils removed, once for dislocating my patella, once for having knee surgery and once after a particularly bad night that I don’t like to think about at all. It’s never a fun experience, so I’m glad your stay wasn’t too long!

    Have a wonderful Tuesday love, stay strong!! xoxo


  6. ~Jessica Zara~
    Jul 20, 2010 @ 15:26:09

    You do indeed do a damn decent job: in fact I think you must have one of the most incredible bodies (and minds!) on the planet to be so lucid through such a hideous experience and to still be here fighting. Be careful with the yoga if you do decide to go: I can understand that you’ve got ‘itchy feet’ so to speak but inversions and the like might put more pressure on your chest/lungs? I speak as if I know what I’m talking about when in reality I have no idea 😉 Just take it easy, okay?

    I’ve been hospitalized twice: once for a migraine (the first I ever had) so severe that doctors thought it was a stroke, and once for the removal of an ovarian cyst that was the size of a watermelon (!) I lost all but one teeny tiny piece of the other ovary in the process…and if it had been left any longer than the cyst would very likely have ruptured…I also had such a bad reaction to the morphine that they were giving me for the pain that my blood pressure doubled…the irony that I was at more risk from dying due to pain medication than the cyst itself is quite interesting.

    Can’t wait to hear about the restaurants 🙂

    Take care



  7. kaztronomic
    Jul 20, 2010 @ 19:04:12

    I really admire how you keep trekking on, not letting anything stop you from living and enjoying your life. I also think you’re so very brave…the thought of having to give myself an injection terrifies me, so I’m floored at how strong you are!

    I’ve never been hospitalized before, thank God. The most compassionate thing anyone has ever done for me was back before I got with my fella, he offered me a place to stay, no strings attached, to get me out of a bad and dangerous living situation. 🙂


    • caronae
      Jul 20, 2010 @ 20:18:45

      I used to hate needles and never thought I would be able to give myself injections. But I’ve had so many in the past few days that they don’t seem to hurt anymore. And I kind of have to inject myself, so that’s the only option! Otherwise I oculd go back to the hospital. If you ever had to, you would be able to do it! 🙂


  8. Christine @ Grub, Sweat and Cheers
    Jul 21, 2010 @ 11:40:08

    Oh my god – I’ve just caught up on your story! I wish I could give you a hug – suffice it to say I’m so glad you are going to be ok. What a frightening experience. I’m so glad you had a Dr who took you seriously and didn’t write you off.

    So strange because yesterday I was just reading the blog of a woman who had a blood clot but also had a small hole in her heart (she did not know about) and it passed through to her brain and she had a stroke. In her 30s. She is recovering quite well but her story left me with the same shock yours did. And a sense of wonder at the grace at which people handle these things when they are thrown at them. I’m delighted to hear your appreciation of yourself and your body – you are amazing!

    Continue to get well and go easy on yourself – best wishes!


  9. Missy Maintains
    Jul 21, 2010 @ 13:34:36

    I just read part 1. I am so happy you are okay and have a positive attitude. That is all so scary. I am also proud of you for writing a letter to the hospital about getting healthier food on the menu….but that’s besides the point! I will be praying for you and I hope everything works out okay!


  10. fitandfortysomething
    Jul 21, 2010 @ 17:43:09

    so scary! i am glad you are healthy and fit… are right it will help you back to wellness.


  11. Kate
    Jul 21, 2010 @ 19:38:33

    i’ve never had a pedicure either! my feet are super gross so i am embarassed for people to see them.

    in middle school i once had a really bad case of strep throat. i got up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, fainted and boinked my head on the floor pretty hard. my parents couldn’t get me up so they called the ambulance and took me to the ER. i was fine but it was pretty embarassing. the paramedic asked me i could be pregnant or on drugs in front of my parents. i was mortified!

    enjoy your rest break and the time with your fam!


  12. Marina
    Jul 21, 2010 @ 20:52:31

    Thank God you’re alright! What a scary story!!! (Just read Part 1) I hope you get back to normal soon! It’s really frightening that someone so young could have a health scare of that magnitude! 😦

    Just try to take it easy and enjoy the time off! Please e-mail me any time if you want to talk!


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