Today’s Happy Note: Reading in the park.
Mental Health Note: I was so wound up when I left work today that I could barely walk in a straight line. I have no idea where this came from. I guess part of depression is feeling inexplicably sad, lonely, or confused. That might be it. It was a pretty straightforward day at the office. Very routine. Normally the routine soothes me, but today it just unsettled me. Maybe because I couldn’t stop thinking about all the other things I had to do. On my way home, I devised an anti-anxiety plan of attack!
- Take a few moments to myself to walk through the park, look at the trees, breathe, and read. I rarely leave the house without a book, and today was no exception. I had “The Gift of Therapy” by Irvin Yalom with me. Yet another book borrowed from L. I am devouring it. It is most wonderful and calming. Not in a creepy way, but it reminds me of L, which reminds me to stay calm; that someone nearby loves and appreciates me unconditionally is an instantly comforting thought.
- Make a list of specific things bothering me and plan out howto deal with each thing (i.e., just do it, shelve it for later, ignore it, etc.).
- Don’t worry about a workout. I like to take one weekday rest day each week and I purposely don’t plan it ahead of time precisely because of days like this. The idea of traveling to the gym or the gymnastics center or the yoga studio or dripping with sweat in the 90 degree heat was unappealing. I work out enough that responding to a day of stress by not working out actually makes sense. I did do about three miles of walking.
- Take extra time to write in my journal.
- Don’t stuff my face, but do have exactly what I want for dinner…
Which leads me to these masterpieces:
I was craving frozen fruit all afternoon/evening! The first bowl has frozen cherries with one spoonful AB and one spoonful PB. The second one is Talenti coconut gelato topped with dark chocolate, frozen berries, unsweetened shredded coconut, and a few mixed nuts.
Coconut, berries, nuts: I could have done way worse. Definitely plenty of sugar. But oh so tasty. Sometimes food needs to serve both a physical, nourishing purpose and an emotional, satisfying purpose. I think I successfully accomplished both here! 🙂
Don’t worry, other eats of the day involved veggies and protein! Like lunch:
Giant tuna mess with hummus, herbs, snap peas (nom nom nom!) and peppers.
Off to do work and clean my room! Neither of which I especially want to do. Sigh…
What do you do when you are inexplicable feeling down?
Favorite frozen fruit?