Today’s Happy Note: I was struggling to write a piece to share in my prose class (we share new pieces every other week) and at the last minute the words just came pouring out and I ended up with a piece I was very proud of. I love it when I start writing about something and just can’t stop; such a good feeling.
Thanks everyone, by the way, for your comments and thoughts on my last Therapy Monday post. They put me at ease. Sometimes I forget how much therapy is a part of my life right now. Sure, I go every Monday and then I write about it, but the last two days I felt totally rattled and upset and just all over the place. All from one slightly “off” session. Your comments reminded me that this is to be expected once in a while! And my own words actually gave me some things to think about; how I might want the process to go in the future, what my relationship with my therapist is like, etc. I was feeling so confused and shaken about the whole matter that I emailed her last night and this morning. Her words — like they are 99% of the time — were very thoughtful and reassuring, and made me feel much better. I think that with therapy, I’m finally at a point where I feel more happiness and joy or pleasure or confidence than sadness or pain. I haven’t felt this way in years, so, overall, something is working.
Finals Week Health Challenge Day 3
Day 0 here (I sort of started on this day, unofficially)
1. Check! I was not in the mood to work out all day and then in the evening, after yelling at my air conditioner, I realized just how cranky I was feeling, and that a little run would help clear my head. And it did! I ran for 56 minutes (I’m guessing about 5.5 miles) and then walked another mile. The run flew by because I was just so busy thinking about things. It was nice to sort through random memories and thoughts and feelings and see where I am at right now at this very moment in my life. Also, I was really proud of myself that I stopped when I wanted to (aka when I got to Whole Foods) rather than forcing myself to go for a set distance. It was freeing to let myself run naturally for once — no time or distance goals, no paces, just me and my thoughts and the path!
2. Check! Dried berries, frozen berries, more frozen berries (so very refreshing right now!), blackberries, spinach, carrots, raisins.
3. Check! I did have a bowl of cereal after dinner, but only one, and then I didn’t want anymore!
4. Meh. I’ll admit, I wasn’t very nice to myself today. I sort of started getting really worked up about school and my schedule for the next few weeks and that turned into low self-esteem which turned into negative thoughts. BUT I think I did a relatively good job of getting some of those emotions out during the run and I’m a feeling happy, confident, and calm right now.
My pictures from today are pretty boring — same old oatmeal, yogurt, berries, trail mix, carrots, SIABs that you’re used to. Once finals are over my next little blog project is going to be doing some fun recipes and posting fun pictures of them.
I hope your weeks are all much more exciting than mine is right now!
I promise I will be a fun blogger again one day soon…