Today’s Happy Note: I’m having serious trouble finding something here. Today was not the most happy of days. Probably the happiest part of the day was being told by one rather harsh professor that I gave an “excellent presentation” on Amartya Sen.
It’s just been one of those days where (almost) nothing goes right. And for me, as soon as a few things go wrong, it’s like everything goes wrong — and this is largely a self-fulfilling prophecy; I seem to sort of give up after a few things have gone wrong. All my classes were long, boring, and/or frustrating, I lost my phone at lunchtime (but found it an hour later, thankfully), I was too exhausted for a workout (having 10-12 hours of schoolwork a day seems to wipe me out just as much as about a 10 mile run would. Does anyone else experience this?), ate too many “bad” things/too much in general, can’t seem to get started on a 15 page paper that’s due Friday, wanted to ask a boy on my floor to lunch but couldn’t find the courage. Just felt like everything was piling up. I talked to my mom for a while tonight and cried and that seemed to help improve my outlook a wee bit. Although we did fight for a while; we have very different views on poverty, aid, and charity, and we seem to squabble over that quite often. I’m also going to go for a brief walk and get some fresh air. Then hopefully I’ll find a way to start this paper. The funny thing is it’s a very literary paper and one that I really want to write; I even have all the books, articles, references, and arguments that I want to use all lined up. But no words are on the page, somehow.
I have two 15-page papers, two 8-10 page papers, and finals in the next week or two. Please forgive my very boring/stressful/off-topic posts for the moment. And know that I truly love hearing from you and your support/comments make me so happy, even if I may not be writing the most detailed posts or commenting much. I promise I will be more present after May 3rd (my last exam)! Please feel free to update me on your lives or to email me 🙂
I’ll probably do every other day or sporadic posts, I’m not sure exactly yet. Or if anyone has an idea for a guest post, that’d be awesome. In the meantime, I’ll leave you with a picture of my beautiful, delicious frozen yogurt from this afternoon: