Today’s Mini Goal: Wash my sheets. I HATE doing this because I only have one set, but it definitely need to be done. Ick.
I made it through an exhausting, but satisfying, 15 miles this morning! Glad it’s done with. Now tomorrow I only need to do ten. I basically looped around lower Manhattan, running through a ton of different parks — Riverside North, Riverside South, Hudson River, Battery City, East River, finally ending up at Union Square. My legs were definitely dragging the last few miles, but I felt pretty good for a majority of the run. Not enough fuel, perhaps? It wasn’t one of those runs were you feel like you’re flying, but there were clear moments when I felt strong and fast, and in the moments when I felt sluggish I still tried to push myself. Long runs are probably my favorite type of run — I take a looonnggg time to “get going”. Usually I only start to feel warmed up after about three miles and start to feel good around five or six. I ran track my first few years of high school, and the only time I ever beat any of my running partners was at the end of a hard workout. I have a kick. Even then, as a fourteen year old, I knew I wanted to run marathons someday. I guess it’s kind of cool that now I get to follow through on a long-time dream! I’m reaalllllyyyy hoping to get into the NYC marathon. Pray to the distance-running Gods for me!
I was curious to notice what/how much I ate today, so I documented everything. I am trying not to be judgmental. I genuinely just wanted to know what I was putting in my body after such a big workout. I have always enjoyed running, but for a long time I used it as a control mechanism (i.e, “I can eat x amount of food if I run x miles”). I think I have a pretty healthy relationship with both running and food at this point in my life, but it hasn’t always been this way. I haven’t really talked about my relationship with food on the blog much because, honestly, I have been a bit afraid. But after reading everyone’s stories and feeling like I’ve made some genuine blog friends who won’t judge me (hi EE! hi Stef!), I feel like, being that this is sort of a food blog, maybe I should talk about this!
From the time I was fourteen or so until I was about nineteen, I hated my body. It got worse when I started college (I was 17), and came to a point where I woke up every day dreading looking at myself in the mirror. I used many coping mechanisms; mostly I just punished myself by staying in my room and crying all the time. I was not one for self-injury or a clear eating disorder, but I undeniably was injuring myself emotionally and had disordered eating. I think the point when I realized I had a serious body image issue was (roughly) the fall of 2008. There was one week when I only let myself eat one thing each day — an apple, for example, or a mini muffin. I still drank some things (milk, orange juice, tea) to get me through my workouts, but it was horrible. For the next eight or ten months, I would go through days or weekends where I deprived myself, but I made up for it the rest of the week; I never lost weight and was always irritable.
Now, if I feel like I have either eaten too much or too little on any given day, I get anxious and upset. Sometimes I get so hungry on long run days and I am afraid that if I respond by eating a lot (even if it’s healthy, whole foods), I will gain a lot of weight overnight. So I decided to simply notice what I eat today and make no judgments about it. I want to make sure I have plenty of healthy, nutritious foods, and I also thought it would just be interesting to have a record of how much I need to eat on a long run day. So here goes!
Pre-run banana and mid-run mojo bar. I can’t eat a full breakfast before running, and I have found that a plain banana is perfect.
Cup of pear cider at the farmer’s market (I had finished my run there). Delicious! Also had a random smoothie sample from TJ’s.
This was easily one of the best brunches of my life (weekend brunch, by the way, is my favorite meal. Especially after a long run!)…
So what is this giant pile of deliciousness, you ask? French toast! I started with two pieces of fresh cinnamon raisin bread and dipped them in a bath made with one egg, chia seeds, cinnamon,maple syrup, a splash of milk, and coconut oil. I cooked them in a bit more coconut oil and threw some apple slices in the pan to caramelize up a bit. When all that was done I plated it and topped it with a bit of maple-vanilla yogurt, almond butter, more cinnamon, and a sprinkle of random trail mix. Definitely not a low calorie brekkie, but this was a brunch.
Afternoon snackage: more trail mix and a forkful of pb for good measure. I honestly was not that hungry in the afternoon at all.
Chocolate raspberry sticks, pb filled pretzels and half a container of chocolate milk also made an appearance in my day!
Dinner was a side salad of spinach, yellow pepper, carrots, and mushrooms with a GIANT chicken quesadilla, buried under that lettuce. I also had a vitamin water “zero” which was on sale at the pharmacy. It was good but way too sweet.
Don’t know if you can read that label, but it says it has electrolytes. It was also sweetened with stevia, which is cool. For the record, the quesadilla was takeout. For some reason I absolutely had to have mexican food tonight, and this hit the spot. Chicken-y, cheesy deliciousness. Mmmmm.
I will probably have a bowl of cereal and some chocolate(s) later on,but didn’t want to wait to blog.
So there you have it. My long run eats.
I’ll also show you my TJ’s loot since I totally haven’t talked about food enough in this post.
I’m the proud new mama of a jar of TJ’s almond butter with flax! I can’t believe I just said that I was the mother of a food item. Oh well. It shall produce many happy food babies. I also procured some Greek yogurt (fyi: their brand is usually relatively cheap), peanut butter filled pretzels, mixed dried berries, macadamia cashew trail mix, and chocolate raspberry sticks (noms all around). What’s your favorite Trader Joe’s item?
Okay. Food talk over.
Hope everyone is having a fun weekend! What have you been up to thus far?