Today’s Positive Note: I really like my hips. It sounds kind of weird to say that out loud, but it’s true. They’re not dainty, and I like them that way. I think they have enough curve to be feminine without just being large. Also, odd fact, I really like my hip bones.
I’ve always kind of had issues with insomnia, and, like most of my minor physical dilemmas, it appears most often during times of stress. Transitioning between home (Michigan) and school (New York) is by no means difficult for me — I’m quite used to it by now — but there remains something stressful about it. I can’t quite name it. It’s almost a very deep, visceral physical reaction. Like my body knows something that my mind doesn’t, which I actually find quite impressive. Anyways. Dear sleep, please come back soon. Love, Caronae.
Speaking of sleep, it’s my reason (excuse?) for not running today. Monday was strength, yesterday was four miles, and today was supposed to be a six mile fartlek. But, after falling asleep during all my classes today, stumbling around campus in a sleepy stupor, and barely having the energy to cook my dinner, I knew it wasn’t gonna happen. I thought about getting up to do it this morning, but I had only slept for five hours. My goal is to do (some of) my mountains of reading tonight, do a little yoga for some movement, and go to bed early. Not following my training plan exactly kinda makes me anxious, but I think I’m doing the right thing (I was supposed to have a rest day later this week, so I’m really just moving things around a bit).
Mountains of reading. That’s about half of my textbooks for the semester.
One of my professors made a very bizarre, slightly irritating comment in class today. We were looking at some texts that were early proponents of some form of human rights (think Hobbes, Locke, Kant), and she started explaining this theory of rights in which our ability to make rational, purposeful decisions makes us human, and therefore gives us human rights. Sounds simple enough, but there’s one obvious flaw: mentally handicapped people who are unable to make their own decisions. Okay, I’m still with her. Then she says “and depressed people. With everybody popping pills these days and being unable to make decisions, that’s another kind of mental handicap.” I found this very strange. I’m depressed, not irrational, thank you very much. And the whole class laughed at this comment too. Was this a joke that went way over my head?
My mom sent me a package yesterday! Mostly it was just books, but she also threw in some Pyrex! Just what I needed (previously, I had to use a pot as a mixing bowl when baking). Thanks mommy, I love you!
Does getting excited about new bowls make me a nerd?
I’ve been eating lots of yummy healthy things lately to fuel me through my exhaustion. I don’t think I’ve been eating enough (last night, as I was trying desperately to fall asleep, I decided to add up my approximate calories for the day in my head. I think it was only 1600. I actually felt sort of weak, so I got up to eat some cereal. Much better).
Homemade spicy carrot-squash-peanut-broccoli soup. Not the greatest, but not half bad for throwing a bunch of random things into a pot.
Butternut squash soup with spinach and toast broiled with goat cheese. Is it wrong that I like things burnt?
This was dinner tonight: I made the lemongrass chili Thai Kitchen instant noodles and added my own tofu (baked with red pepper, honey, and ginger), bell pepper, and spinach. I love the little nooks and crannies in the tofu, they soaked up the broth and the flavors wonderfully. I guess I’m kind of on a soup kick lately? I’m craving something sweet right now (which always happens after dinner!) so I might go get some frozen yogurt later. Yum.
Tomorrow is my last day of class for the week! Happy happy joy joy.
Do you ever have trouble falling asleep? What helps?
What’s your favorite kind of soup?
Lastly, head on over to Diana’s bake sale for Haiti and bid on something. I’m baking banana chocolate chip walnut bread, so feel free to bid on that, or anything else!